Novel Update — August 9, 2026 —I Have Done It, and It’s Beautiful

I have done it. On July 28, at 3:33 pm, I wrote the very last sentence. I have written my book. I expected to feel ecstatic. I heard authors say that they cried with relief and excitement. I paused. I listened. I breathed. I didn’t really know how to feel in that moment. It was as if my soul was looking at my physical body from another place. I couldn’t believe it.

The book is approximately 70,000 words. But it is mine. Every sentence, every word, carefully chosen; every character purposefully created. Poiesis: bringing something into being that did not exist before. And I have. I really have.

It has taken me many years to write. Looking back, I understand why it took so long. There were things I still needed to learn before I could fully understand my character’s motivations. It had to wait for me, just like I had to wait for it. It came together when it was meant to.

While writing this book, I also studied philosophy, particularly the works of Husserl, Sartre, Heidegger, and Fromm. All of the things I learned through this study are deeply important to the book. I had to learn to think from the inside and discover that particular place in liminal reality—where the spark lives—the spark of life—the spark of consciousness. While writing, I also had to be the character; it was as if I was method acting while creating their reality. I wrote this book differently because I wanted it to be experienced differently.

I hope these lessons have shaped this book into something raw, lush, and unforgettable. This book is meant to be a visceral experience, as if the reader is literally wearing the character’s skin. I want your skin to crawl while the character is lying wet in bed—a shivery itch spreading across their body.

As of now, it is called “The Memory of Water.” 

Whether or not another person ever reads it, I am proud of this novel. 

I think it’s beautiful.